We come with beautiful secrets
We come with purposes written on our hearts, written on our souls
We come to every new morning
With possibilities only we can hold, that only we can hold

Redemption comes in strange place, small spaces
Calling out the best of who we are

And I want to add to the beauty
To tell a better story
I want to shine with the light
That's burning up inside

charlene and ginny where are you?
i miss you guys so much.
sighs. but i guess you are all busy.


sitting at the beach is such a nice thing to do.
made me think, again.
a pity the waters were so dirty.
brought rachel cycling to pasir ris park while i jogged.
she was tired out by the time we reached there.
but it was all worth it.
even though the waters were quite gross,
it was still nice to sit by and know
you are right beside me.
and just dreaming of a better place and
with the ones i love.
it's really hard to please ppl.
all the more so,
lord, to please you would be my only heart's desire.
so many thoughts that ran thru my head.
call it 'emoing' if you might,
but it felt really good to run and run,
seemingly faster from all that is troubling you.
starin up at the sky and just running.
to feel your kiss upon my face,
to know you're all over me.
your beautiful creation that surrounds everywhere i look at.

and i don't even know what she wants?
this barrier just seems to be there.
and yet not there.
maybe we're just too alike?
and i dono why rachel is so stubborn.

And I wish all the people I love the most.
Could gather in one place.
And know each other and love each other well..
And I wish we could all go camping.
And lay beneath the stars.
And have nothing to do and stories to tell.
We'd sit around the campfire.
And we'd make each other laugh remembering when.
You're the first one I'm inviting.
Always know that you're my friend..
And at the risk of wearing out my welcome.
At the risk of self-discovery.
I'll take every moment.
And every minute that you'll give me.
Every moment and every minute that you'll give me.


musical last night at Church Of Our Saviour was so so so good!!!
the voices were ! totally blew me away.
and the props and costumes were absolutely stunning.
the music was so so good. precise and everything. and everything was jus so good.
and for a moment it just felt so good to speak my mind to my parents and talk non-stop about smth(:



This is the one thing I know
You said you won’t let me go
You said you won’t let me go

And the veil just lifted
I can finally understand
The way you work in me
But even if I didn’t
You are still a sovereign God
Who has a plan for me

It ‘s good to know you work with hurt and broken souls
And that you’ll take a soul like mine

And it feels like I’ve been waking up
Only to fight with the same old stuff
I was caught in the habits of a lifetime
Giving up I could never find the right time
All the indefensible things I would defend
All the million ways that my heart was bent
Then the clouds just parted

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12:18 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

-stretches-

ahhh. i can smell it. can you?
christmas!!! it's just two more days away!!
it's incredibly scary how time flies so fast.
was just dinnering with spider last night and we both agreed how the A's passed so quickly. yay. we finished the food(: and how he simply enjoyed suaning me about me wanting to exercise and my rantings of "i will do this aftr A's". not to mention the billion times he suaned me about the $150 specs tt i have when we were looking arn for his glasses.

oh God,
thank you for loving me
when on the cross you made history

and we have so little time left. so much to do, but so little time to do. god i jsut don't have this courage to bring it up. please help me. i do want to seriously share and just surrender it to you. no matter how hard it is.

lim sirong: god loves you very very much!

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he broke the toilet door last night.
because of a screaming kid that refused to bathe when she got home. and oh, the screaming, crying and banging. do i miss that? and i just sat there wrapping and writing like everything was alright.
i was so looking forward to them coming back. missed being taken care of. missed the times where i could be the small girl. missed the noise and laughter.
but of course. caron koh, you're eighteen. no more whims and fancies. no more being the spoilt brat. no more whining. no more messing around.
mum just spoke to me in the lift about how responsibilities catch up with age and i can't just leave things be and not care. it never is easy, is it?
and the hole that, i'm not sure has been filled yet.
i'm searching.
for what?
i don't know.
but i only feel the emptiness that lord,
i know only you can fill.
and i'm getting tired again of missing people and knowing at the same time they are busy with their own lives. and yet the expectancy of being there for them. but its always the struggle with self.
and what's the use of a cell?


i must.
take this sword,
kill it.
fight it.
no more let self and pride
grow.
break me again
lord, friend, lover.
renew our love once again this christmas.
pursue me
chase me
catch me
kiss me
love me.


at the end, you are the one left standing.
the only one.

how can you be alone amidst the crowd of people around you?
oh shove it.
everything's fine.
:)


so take me as you find me
all my fears and failures
fill my life again
i give my life to follow
everything i believe in
now i surrender

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3:10 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

how do i live up to it?

i don't want to waste another day
but it's drying up
i can feel it.
i don't know what to do,
i don't.
r_____,
before .


just ?

i want to go swimming.

8:09 PM

somehow something isn't right
something,
i can't put my finger to.

oh the other side of something
where everything's blurred.
place my heart upon the altar
it has leprosy, oh!
leave it be
i know not what lies in it no longer
let me spin garments of breath
love, grace, hope.

drinking mum's carrot and potato and celery soup does make it better.
oh the lost days when i could crawl in btw mum and dad while watched tv on rainy days. or when i was sick and mum would cook steamed pomphret. with ginger on top.

oh !
where have you gone to?
where have you escaped?
or are you lost.
left behind somewhere in the back of the car
it drove off and took you along with it.
have you become
hvae you turned
or mind,
are you playing tricks on me?
leading me to think beneath the surface
that still waters run deep

are you dammed in?
oh



If to distant lands I scatter
If I sail to farthest seas
Would you find and firm and gather 'til I only dwell in Thee?
If I flee from greenest pastures
Would you leave to look for me?
Forfeit glory to come after
'Til I only dwell in Thee

have i lost you to trepidation and fear
to doubt and inadequacy
to uncertainty and insecurity

hold back.


when i can't feel you
i have learnt to reach out just the same
when i can't hear you
i know you still hear every word i pray
and i want you
more than i wanna live another day
as i wait for you
i am made more
faithful

thank you, great god.

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7:41 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

what is this?
this turmoil, battle that goes on within me?
slay the beast!
slay the dragon!
she awakes, she smokes.
again,
swing your sword!
it's not long now,
it isn't
before she falls and never rises again.


finally back in sing. but i shall update all another time.
too much. just really glad to be home


warrior, you'll rise
you'll see.
the better dawn,
the beauty of blood,
of it that gives life and
breathes death.
warrior,
you are,
you are a she,
a beauty.

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11:18 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

shout it out (:

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all the brothers and sisters

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of old.

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credits.

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wonderful people

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